What would I tell myself 13 yrs ago when this picture was taken:
I would say:
Hold on because this ride is going to get a little bumpy.
Don't wait for a crisis to open your bible.
Don't keep your voice hidden behind that smile.
Embrace your journey and don't wish it to go away or change. It has made you who you are today.
The people who come into your life are for a reason. Love them.
Be completely transparent in everything you do.
Wisdom is knowledge, soak up every ounce you can.
Let go of all the stuff you think you can't do.
Everything that happens to you happens for a reason, your experiences don't happen "just" because.
Nothing will be a coincidence, God will always give you everything you ever need if you follow him.
the Older Shantel
It is known that most of us will wait on a crisis to happen in our lives before we will change. Like for me it was the loss of our Son that made me open the bible.
why did I wait for that. Why did that push me to become a true believer. What have I done to not believe before.
why did I wait for that. Why did that push me to become a true believer. What have I done to not believe before.
I was chatting with my friend the other day about growing this business. That morning I had come to the metal state that I do not need a crisis to grow this business. You see in my head before my realization happened I was praying and waiting for a lay off at work. To be honest now I look at that and think I wouldn't have done anymore with a lay off than I would've with out one.
Doing the same things now, showing up in service to others everyday is what I need to do to push the needle. I don't need all the time in the world to grow successfully, and neither do you.
Doing the same things now, showing up in service to others everyday is what I need to do to push the needle. I don't need all the time in the world to grow successfully, and neither do you.
My sister is having a baby!!! So so soon!
This is her first one. she is not due until the 27th, but she is 3 centimeters dilated and she is having early signs of labor!
I woke this morning and so many emotions came rolling back. I should be right behind her. I should be having a baby with her. God had other plans for my pregnancy. At 11 weeks we misscarried our second baby in the last 8 months. We have continued to try and try again. Only God knows our path and I am ok with that. Only God knows that I don't want to send this child to a daycare. Only God knows I want to raise our next baby here at home as a working mom. Only God knows that I want to home birth after 2 C-sections. Only God has the right plan for me.
We wake up everyday, we do the same thing. your brain is wired on auto pilot, in fact by the time you are the age 35 you spend 95% of your day working in your unconscious mind. 80% of those thoughts come from your past experiences. An astonishing 75% of those thoughts are negative.
Is it possible to re-wire your brain?
yes. yes it is, and it can be as simple as committing to a meditation every day. Our brains do not know the difference between a thought and a reality.
what will you do to change your thoughts?
will you learn to re-wire your brain and stop living in the past and instead start envisioning the future?
will you learn to re-wire your brain and stop living in the past and instead start envisioning the future?
I used to think that when I would think about what was going to happen in the future it would never happen, because everything I wanted to do should be a suprise. Now I think the oppsite, because you have the power to train your brain into thinking that you are already living in that future. And if you think like that you will be more apt to not live in your vision of the past.
The mom guilt sets in every morning at 630am.
I wake them at 5:50am. we do our daily morning routine. Some days go good, some days are a struggle to get out the door on time. Sure we could get them up earlier, but we would rather them get more sleep than not.
Everyday it seems we rush out the door no matter.
Always on my drive to school I will ask them what they will do to make their day good?
Shayla always answers, be kind, or be a good friend. sometimes she will say be happy or raise her hand.
Braylinn is a be a good friend, and listen to the teacher. She also will say be nice, or be respectful.
and that is how we will always start our day.
We get to school at 630. The girls get dropped off at the door. Everyday I pray for a new way. A new routine. A new future.
Mom guilt comes in when I kiss them their good-byes and tell them I will see them at 4pm. That is 9.5hours later.
What is it they do for the 9.5hrs in their day.
Do they listen well
Do they work hard
Do they speak up when needed
Do they eat all their lunch
Do they talk kindly to their friends.
What do they love most?
Do they love to write
Do they love to read
Do they love to talk
Do they love to not listen
As a mom I will never truly know these things because I am not with them during this time. It breaks my heart inside.
It takes me back to March-April and May of 2020, when I was able to stay home with the girls for 13 weeks. Boy was it amazing in so many ways. I got to know my kids more than i ever knew them before. Got to know their ins and outs. Got to understand how they thought, how they loved and how they learned best.
it was the most amazing but difficult time of my life. I am a welder, and I have a very physical job. You see being home opened my eyes to the world of using my mental state, and nothing of my physical state.
it was the most amazing but difficult time of my life. I am a welder, and I have a very physical job. You see being home opened my eyes to the world of using my mental state, and nothing of my physical state.
It was rewarding, it was tough, but most of all it was right where I needed to be.
I pray everyday for the best learning space for my children.
