The mom guilt sets in every morning at 630am.
I wake them at 5:50am. we do our daily morning routine. Some days go good, some days are a struggle to get out the door on time. Sure we could get them up earlier, but we would rather them get more sleep than not.
Everyday it seems we rush out the door no matter.
Always on my drive to school I will ask them what they will do to make their day good?
Shayla always answers, be kind, or be a good friend. sometimes she will say be happy or raise her hand.
Braylinn is a be a good friend, and listen to the teacher. She also will say be nice, or be respectful.
and that is how we will always start our day.
We get to school at 630. The girls get dropped off at the door. Everyday I pray for a new way. A new routine. A new future.
Mom guilt comes in when I kiss them their good-byes and tell them I will see them at 4pm. That is 9.5hours later.
What is it they do for the 9.5hrs in their day.
Do they listen well
Do they work hard
Do they speak up when needed
Do they eat all their lunch
Do they talk kindly to their friends.
What do they love most?
Do they love to write
Do they love to read
Do they love to talk
Do they love to not listen
As a mom I will never truly know these things because I am not with them during this time. It breaks my heart inside.
It takes me back to March-April and May of 2020, when I was able to stay home with the girls for 13 weeks. Boy was it amazing in so many ways. I got to know my kids more than i ever knew them before. Got to know their ins and outs. Got to understand how they thought, how they loved and how they learned best.
it was the most amazing but difficult time of my life. I am a welder, and I have a very physical job. You see being home opened my eyes to the world of using my mental state, and nothing of my physical state.
it was the most amazing but difficult time of my life. I am a welder, and I have a very physical job. You see being home opened my eyes to the world of using my mental state, and nothing of my physical state.
It was rewarding, it was tough, but most of all it was right where I needed to be.
I pray everyday for the best learning space for my children.
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