I heard someone once say that wherever you land whether it is for just a little while, or maybe for the rest of your lifetime you should always grow some roots where you are planted.
On this Thanksgiving day we have lots to be thankful for. Lots to be grateful with the future things ahead. I am grateful for the friendships I have created in while planting our roots here in our town. I am grateful for the extended friendships that have begun, the church community we have found, and the overall love and joy that has been there for me and our family.
I encourage you even if you haven't found your forever home to go out into your community and plant some roots. We live off of community. It is important to have.
*finding peace*
Scrolling... its something I get caught up in too much, honestly more often than I will ever admit.
Its kinda like when you eat a whole sleeve (or more
) of cookies and you dont feel that regret until 10mins after you eat them.
) of cookies and you dont feel that regret until 10mins after you eat them. Same with scrolling, I never feel that regret until I realize how much time has passed. Or maybe how many times my kids asked me for their attention. Is all scrolling bad? Heck no, this is information at our finger tips, but watch what you get caught up in.
Being conscious of what is happening while being on my phone has been a huge undertaking. I am not perfect, but acknowledging that I have issues has been my first step.
Its hard.
Its addicting.
Its the way of life for most.
All eyes and ears are watching you. Make those conscious decisions before you open that phone.
Finding peace and joy that is around me physically is my goal from this day forward along with working towards adding more value when my phone is open
If you don't receive a message back from me right away, please know that I WILL respond, because I truly am here for you 
I understand that my thoughts on Mask wearing might be much different than others, and I completely except all views. If you don't agree with mine then please just read on through, or skip ahead.
When we started school this year Covid was barely existing, and masks were recommended but not required. For that we were thankful, because truth be told we don't believe they work. We don't believe they are keeping us healthy. We don't believe in breathing in your own Co2. We believe in building our immune systems the right way. We believe that allowing ourselves to breathe fresh air is the only way to strengthen our immune systems. If you believe in wearing masks that is fine with me. If you believe in tearing down your immune systems by fueling them with pop or fast food, or eating all processed food, that too is your choice. i don't put those things in your mouth, so why do you have to cover mine?
When we got the message that all children were required to wear masks we were upset. We were saddened by the restrictions. So I guess all I can say is, it is what it is.
The one thing that got me the most in the manipulation that is happening in our school systems. For example, my 5yr believes that her grandparents couldn't come to her birthday party because they didn't wear a mask around the people who unknowingly at the time had Covid. This.... is why I am concerned about masks, this is another reason why I don't like them. This is another one of my reasons "why" I am doing the things I am doing. Covid is a sickness that is spreading like wild fire. covid is not a sickness that EVERYONE is dying from unlike the media wants you to believe. Do I feel and care about the people who have died. Of course. I do believe that when its my time to go, its my time to go, covid or not. I will not stop living my life now or ever. My true home is not here, it is in the arms of Jesus, and he will call me when he is ready.
I am one and four.
One and four women will have a miscarriage.
About 2% of those women will have more than one.
Did I ever believe I would be one of those women? Not at all. I had three pregnancy's no problems conceiving, or carrying.
Little did I know... that it is possible even after 3 births.
Felt uninformed, oblivious, and blind by the true information that is out there about how common it is.
We lost a baby at 35 weeks. He was born still. We went through the hurt, the loss, everything else that comes along with not bringing your child home. See my post here
We had a beautiful rainbow baby girl 11 months later. She was and is perfect. Yet we knew we were longing to raise more children in this world.
While building our dreams in a house we prolonged trying for a baby soon after our daughter was born.
We moved into our house on June 20th 2019 and were pregnant by the end of July.
What an exciting time to read a positive pregnancy test!! Telling your families, wearing the cute Big Sister shirts and holding up our famous little chalk board sign that told my entire family!
As we all know God certainly has other plans for us that sometimes we can't see, or understand.
We were just two days away from our first 12 week appointment and telling the world (on social media)
We got the news that there was no heart beat.
wow. Hit me like a ton of bricks. big.
What doctors and women don't tell you is the physical pain, the emotional pain, the how do you know if you pass the embryo, the what do you do with it when you pass it, and all the other things that come along with having a miscarriage is really all kept in the dark. And WHY?
Actually, it freaking sucks to be in the dark about it... and let me tell you if I hadn't reached out to friends that had been through it I would've never known. It was my community, my tribe that pulled through for me by simply sharing their experiences. Heck, I didn't know half of them had ever been through it.
It so common, yet so not talked about. Can we start to make this more "normal" more talked about and not hidden.
Actually, it freaking sucks to be in the dark about it... and let me tell you if I hadn't reached out to friends that had been through it I would've never known. It was my community, my tribe that pulled through for me by simply sharing their experiences. Heck, I didn't know half of them had ever been through it.
It so common, yet so not talked about. Can we start to make this more "normal" more talked about and not hidden.
So we buried that babe in our back yard. (with no name) and all too often I think of them.
Fast forward to July of 2020 11 weeks in to another positive pregnancy test, and it was the same signs, symptoms and time frame as the last sweet babe, with high hopes we push through a few days and realized this babe will too be in the backyard. Again not talked about, not thought about, not even existent in other people eyes.
Knowing God has greater plans is all I can live off of, and this is where I start to spread the word of "normalcy" in miscarriages.
Then there was positive test number 3 in Nov 2020. I didn't know whether to be excited or happy or sad or scared. All the emotions have come out, and I still don't know. All I do know is I need to give those things to God. every single one of them. I have no more controls over anything that may or may not happen.
Praying for what is to come, what is set for our future.
This is how many years we have been blessed by your
Love
Wit
Hug
Kisses
Kindness
Tantrums
Grace
Heart
Truthfullness
As your last night being Four, I asked what being Five might look like: with no hesitation you said, "I will be strong"
Yes you will little lady, Yes you will.
We love you more than you will ever know
